Pejuang Impian

Assalam.

Oh Allah, the most Generous, the most Caring, 

I had so many to achieve, 

and had so many things UNachieved,

because they are UNfinished.

But I want to make it a 'have' rather than a 'had'.
I want to make it 'finished' rather than 'unfinished'.
Let's start all over again. Let's stand on the starting line and wait for the fire to strike.
My dreams,  what I want to do, what I need to do - they are all still valid.
I just need to change to make it happen.

Let's start my business again.
Let's start my writing again.
Let's start my diet again.
Let's start my studies again.
Let's start my crochet again.
Let's start my arts again.
Let's start my drawing again.
Let's start my reading again.
Let's start my LIFE again.

Because I want to believe, somewhere in this world, my foot need to step.
 Somewhere in this world are faces I need to see.
Somewhere in this world is air I need to breath.
Somewhere in this world are things I need to touch.

Let's strike the EXCITEMENT in me alive.
Again.

Amin. 

Assalam.

Yesterday was awesome!

Das ist super!

I told in previous entry Day 9 that I skipped aerobic for 6 days, isn't it?

So yesterday was awesome because I started working out again!

ATTITUDE & CONSISTENCY

Being a normal human being, I too face difficulties to keep consistency. Therefore working out has become a challenge to fulfill because of attitude. To keep consistency, I need consistent attitude. Plus, my diet mode is slow and steady hence make it hard to withstand for a long term period. However, I am glad that this one thing called motivation exist in this world.

MOTIVATION

Studying needs motivation. Same goes to diet. Cause diet is part of studying. I study on how to keep my body healthy, to balance food proportion, and live a healthy living. I admit it. To change is so hard and it costs a lot. I got to cheat and push myself everytime. Whenever I saw sunquick drink in fridge, I waver. Million times I tell myself you can have it on Sunday ( my cheat day ). That is intrinsic motivation. I myself console my desire.

However, sometimes you just cannot lie that constraining yourself is even harder than constraining others. Therefore I choose a solution for that.

SUCCESS STORY

Success story makes me believe that I am not ALONE. Somewhere in some other places exist someone just like me who shared same dream and has succeed to achieve it. Reading them brings me to their journey, to their sufferings, and they kind of lending me invisible strength. It's hard to relate but that is whhat really happening inside me. Their stories piercing my heart, enough to make the long-awaited-real-me awaken. If someone who weight even a hundred could loss half their weight, just WHY can't I do it! They were just like me! Started from mere tears and a fist of courage.

Some links for success stories that moved my heart:
Amirul Agam's Story
Nur Farihan's Story
Aizat Razak's Story
Nadra's Story
Nashriq's Story



ITS TOO EARLY TO GIVE UP!

Till the day that I could look into the mirror and say "Yes, it's not that bad. You look great!", I won't stop!

Das ist Möglich!

Assalam.

Today is 19th of August. With that, officially I have been on diet for 9 days. So, actually I haven't weight myself and I dont even know precisely my weight before I started my diet. I just made an assumption for 73kg after taking into consideration for Hari Raya. I mean everyone earn some kilos after Raya right? So lets be realistic. 

To be frankly speaking, I skipped aerobic for 6 days already. Pretty upsetting isn't it? But I still strongly believed that 80% of diet comes from food consumption and another 20% is credit for exercising.

SLOW AND STEADY 

For me, I am suitable on this pace. Slow and steady. That will be my diet mode. I remember one girl wrote in Success Story Kevin Zahri's website : being fat for years so don't expect to be slender in one week. Take your time and see how far can your body goes. One thing for sure, I really control my eating portion. It gets better ( I mean my adaptation to less food ) from day to day. Craving is not a big problem any longer. If I take jemput-jemput or curry puff, I will make sure to drink plenty of warm water. 

WARM WATER BEFORE MEAL 

Before each meal ( heavy and I mean lunch and dinner ) I will make sure to drink warm water beforehand. That is part of Sunnah too though. To drink before you eat. You know what you benefit from it? Less space for food so you can cheat to your tummy telling it "Hey, you are full. It's time to get up.", giving you bonus to reduce food portion. Brilliant right? Rasulullah is indeed smart!

NEVER SKIP BREAKFAST

Sometimes, I woke up late. Even after 9.00 am, I will still munch on 2 slices of bread and Nutrilite protein. That is the key. Never skip meal! Better late than never right? And if my stomach can take some more, I will boil water and drink again, warm water for one glass. Easy!

So, as of now those are some tips from a mere beginner like me. This is just my opinion as I work on my diet and hopefully I can meet my real me soon. I mean later.

Yesterday, I started my diet journey. 

With wit and courage, I hope to lose 10 kg in 6 weeks.

Just 10 kg and another following 6 weeks is another 10 kg. So in the end, I only left with 52 kg which is my dream weight.

I can fly run to the sky, I can fly go to the dream!

Currently I weight 72 kg and is 153 cm height tall. So, it is pretty obvious that my body condition is not good. I cannot go for optimum in carrying daily routines. In pursuing tough activities, I always digging out my mind for excuse. Not because I am not interested, but my body had restricted me. My body has limit due to its being heavy.

Just couple of weeks before, I realised that seeing my old friends had became a challenge. A hassle. In my mind, I keep on telling myself to be confident, to be bold, to love my shape, but all my brick walls broke down with just few sentences. I became aware that I am part of FAT, BIG AND ROBUST ! I've been living with it for almost 10 years! Just what I've done to myself?

When I saw my cousins all wearing nice clothes during Raya, I admit that I kind of envy. I envy that if I could afford buying those, it won't look good on me! Know why? Cause I'm fat! 

Mak told me few days back, that if I were to weight 51 kg, I'll be able to see my true self. My actual face. So, I asked myself the night after, did I really doesn't have any interest in meeting the ACTUAL ME? Did I really not care with my shape? 

Therefore, I want to give myself a second chance. This time around, I'll do it till the end. I want to challenge myself. I want to see how far can I go. How much potential I have in me! How active can I be. How free can I become. How pretty I will look like with my ACTUAL FACE. I WANT TO MEET ME! THE ACTUAL ME! 

Food consumption:

Breakfast (9.20 am) - Plant Protein Nutrilite + 1 slice bread + 1 glass warm water

Morning (11.00 am) - 1 glass warm water + 1 piece jemput jemput bawang 

Lunch (1.00 pm) - 1 fist size rice + vegetable + fish

Dinner (6.45 pm) - fish + vegetable

Supper (10.00 pm) - 1 glass warm milk + 2 cm slices of ginger

Workout:

Aerobic for Cardio fitness (7.30 pm)  - 45 minutes 

Video sources : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rcAWrseeI1A

I am great and is feeling really fantastic!

Can't wait seeing the ACTUAL ME!